Can of Worms

blog entry number five...I think. But who is counting.

Okay. So this is what I have gone through in the past couple of months. My summer was crazy, full of self-doubt and stress, as well as lots of challenges, beautiful kids, and great co-workers--a wonderful experience but little time to think. Then came September. Suddenly super busy has transformed into lots of free time, lots of free time with no people to spend it with. So lately I have been having a rough time of it, questioning God's intentions, grumbling a lot, and feeling sorry for myself. But this week I had a reaffirming of faith. I had an emotional breakdown, feeling so overwhelmed by life in general, and I read from Hebrews in desperation for some hope. And I received hope in abundance!! How patient the Lord is when we doubt and how sweet is his grace when we accept it! I am not a great writer or eloquent but I hope I can share how God has changed my heart in the past few days. Hebrews talks of a better covenant to be received in Jesus, who is constantly sitting by the throne of God, intercessing on our behalf. The author encourages us to press on, to cast of the temptations of sin, and to press on in the light of trials. He also reminds his audience that our hope is in a perfect city, in heaven, where we will truly know God. I feel like I am talking on and on, but I have flipped 180 from where I was at the beginning of the week. For the first time in months I am content and at peace! And though I know that may be temporary, I may loose sight of this hope again tomorrow and feel grumpy and lonely, God is faithful and his promises remain the same! And as his daughter I will never be forsaken by Him, he will continually call me back to his arms, to renew my heart and teach of true joy!

amen!

other reasons today was great:
I hung out with Christina, who is the sister I never had-
We baked 8 loaves of bread and 2 pans of cinnamon rolls, I held her month old baby sis, we took a long walk in the beautiful fall weather
I had a white chocolate mocha, yum yum
I hung out with Emily Mauney, who is a true blessing to me!
Had a break from the alphabet