i have decided that my calling is to be an innkeeper.


but until then, i will be a receptionist.


i have had some crazy interviews, the wide range of businesses from childcare factories to a bill collector. thats right, i interviewed for a law firm that collects bills. the lady said she was afraid it may break me and i am too. so i think the alternative, warm fuzzy health spa may be a winner. i would get free massages and acupuncture.

today i chatted with an old lady while picking over on-sale green beans at the grocery store. we talked about the weather. it was nice.

tonight i am painting my toe nails, cleaning my room, and putting new knobs on my dresser.

yes. its tuesday. nothing is happening. i am putting new knobs on my dresser, i did my taxes, payed my bills, did laundry. i will probably also go on a walk, put in some more applications, and take a nap.

i wish there was more. but there is not.

tonight i have the delightful duty of watching Eli. So far he has slept the majority of our time together. cool. i'll just....wait for you to wake up Eli ;)

i am watching Titanic and reminiscing about when i first saw it, on a birthday, perhaps my fifteenth? its actually quite sad, though i remember giggling extensively when i first watched it. There are those who face death well and those who do not.

i actually have nothing to write about. just launching my feeble voice into the void.


helllllooooooooooo.

my cat is crazy


i have bought one of my tickets home-hooray!! i am really excited.

i need to make a pros and cons list for potential jobs:

Montessori after school director:

PROS:
career advancing
i would be in a supervisory position
benefits
get to wear nice clothes to work
great networking with hoity toity parents

CONS:
downtown
responsibility
potential to not be able to go home in may
40 kids
In downtown denver, long commute -possible resolved by the park and ride

Nanny:

PROS:
good money
relaxed, low key mom
guaranteed vacation in may
potential supplemental receptionist job at mr. nanny dude's office
two kids
shorter commute plus gas money
get to wear commfy clothes to work
great potential as a great job while i potentially take classes

CONS:
no benefits (but could be resolved by getting PT starbucks job)
not resume building (but potentially restorative to my frazzled over worked person)



um okay.

i had an interview and it went amazingly well. i have another interview and a follow up interview tomorrow. the major problem: only one hotttt interview outfit. hmmmm. i will have to improvise. suddenly my once incredibly empty schedule is very very full.

my activities of late (which i thoroughly enjoyed) that may confirm my (and sometimes my roommates) official spot in the world of dorkdom:

attending a university gymnastics meet- and then watching Stick It
Bible /starwars trivia game on st. patty's night, which we can't actually talk about yet because i got whooped and am still upset about it
getting excited about successfully using excel


i proudly wear my crown of geekdom with my staff of useless trivia knowledge that did not win me the Bible/ starwars trivia game. i am going to start reading the Bible again

also i dreamed of vampires again last night. it involved me becoming a vampire against my will, running away from ghouls whose entrails were leaking (quite graphically) and me, a traumatized and angry individual, trying to deal with my new reality.

i am soooooooo unemployed. i just sent out five more resumes. to entertain myself i have set out on two individual yet related projects:

1. creating a beautiful table in which i organize, categorize, and list the jobs i have applied for, dates, responses from organizations(that column is despairingly empty) etc. In fact, I believe that my table is so impressive that I should attach it along with my resume and cover letter. its a freakin' work of art.

2. writing my cover letters in different literary styles. stream of consciousness. charles dickens-esque. in couplets. compilation of haiku. capitalizing every other letter (its takes a surprisingly long time to complete this one). the list goes on. its genius really. i think everyone will appreciate my ability to think out of the box.


most of my employment seeking tasks simply remind me how freaked out i am about committing to anything long term. this seems quit paradoxical when contrasted with my over all very responsibility obsessed tendencies.

today, when driving home, it smelled like rain, which is actually quite unusual for the great CO. its either sunny or snowing here, no real in between. though i expect our summer to be fraught with thunderstorms.

last night i had a dream about vampires and tortellini. actually i was making tortellini when i realized that vampires were coming to stalk me. i ran to the door and just got it locked in time (like locks stop vampires) and then they were there. it was rather terrifying. i woke myself up. don't worry they didn't get me.


we have internet at the house.

i am in a coffee shop and i am pretty sure someone just snapped a picture of me and then ran away. this individual was lurking by my coveted desk seat in the sea of coffee shop couches and i simply assumed they were attempting to make me uncomfortable in order to steal my seat. after a few glances in their direction, i gave up my monitoring of their movements, assuming, correctly, that i am much more stubborn than they and will stay as long as needed to stake my claim on this spot. but then, in an instant, they were up close next to me, snapped a picture on their cell phone, turned and walked away quickly, making their escape before i could formulate an appropriate retaliation. um, and what would be an appropriate response, i am still unsure. what just occurred here?

i met Keirsa and Eamon for lunch on sixteenth street and caught up on all the alamosa gossip. for real, there needs to be a la puente reality show going on because this town has redefined DRAMA. there is so much to be said.

i am blogging when i need to be writing cover letters. so farewell.

yeah, and we also went to stomp! which was amazing and i decided that is what i want to do with the rest of my life. beat of pieces of trash creating incredible music for all. yes. i have also decided that in order to make this happen i am going to write mtv and apply for their show MADE (but actually i checked their website, i don't think that show anymore, i will write all the same)and have them make me into a stomp person. i could rock that out.

or i will find a pbs show to participate in.


i got a reply for a nanny job. either way, graduate school is definitely in my imminent future. i have decided. fall '09 higher levels of learning and brainwashing, here i come.

i am glad that the early twenties is supposed to feel so crazy because it does. it feels like have no anchor for my existence. but enough, i am moving forward.

i am in boulder, with Rachel. hanging out. chilling. music. its good.

so, like so many people, i really enjoy the blog 'stuff white people like' its highly entertaining. today's was titled 'hating corporations' talking about how the tendency is to hate all corporations except the ones that are trendy, like apple and target. even more entertaining because while reading the blog i am engaged in several of the other categories of things that white people like, like hanging out in a coffee shop, trying to be smart and cool. and i am eavesdropping on a conversation of a near by table of super hip boulder-ites, who are talking about how boulder is so conscious of shopping locally, etc etc, regurgitating the very things the blog satirizes. how amusing.

eric and jessa and eli are moved in, things are being re arranged and un packed still but it is lovely to wake up to other voices and to have so many lovely people around.

i am applying for more jobs, have not found any yet. i applied for an administrative assistant job at a hospital and the lady quickly sent back an email, 'is it fair to assume you meant to send your resume to someone else, or did you mean to apply for the position in my department?' um, i intended to apply for the job in your department, thats why i sent it to you? needless to say, i have not heard back from her. cool. i feel smart.

so lets all hope i will find a job.

on a happier note, i bought a gnocchi roller. yay.