packing is overrated; instead i am watching Dracula 2000 - excellent. i love cheesy vampire movies. added bonus- the hero was Edmund from Mansfield Park. i am pleased. thus my packing plan: grab, throw, and zip. oh snap, there is blood, here come the vampires.

oh and the preist is from firefly, the captain. clearly my kind of film.

it has been many moons since my past blog.

i have been working A LOT.

and had an episode of illness.

and my cat smells like poo.

i am going back to the queen city tomorrow, where i anticipate humidity and hopefully a raucous thunder storm. it rained yesterday here which is not saying much, but there were some tornadoes.

um, i suppose with blogging there is an assumption that there have been major occurrences going on to talk about, but there is not. which is why i am looking even harder for magical portals that will whisk me away to other lands. (yeah, i saw prince caspian-oh Narnia where are you) there is this fine line i walk, which due to my overwhelming restraint has not been crossed, where i may at any moment decide that i should only wear medieval gowns, with flowers in my hair. or speak in rhyme. or truly commit to my beliefs in UFOs and conspiracy theories...in other words, to go extreme into the realm of dorkdom. oh, the temptation is there and ever pressing. that why i read people magazine, to keep me tied into the mind numbing reality of our world.

it is summer and my flowers are not yet blooming. there is no spring here. it snowed last week and now it is 80 degrees (technically we even had snow flurries yesterday, briefly, an abomination)

i am off to work and then to play for a week, hooray for weddings and kayaks.

oh and my new goal for this year is to learn how to rock climb. we will see how this goes but i have my daddy's climbing shoes, which i believe is an auspicious beginning.

yeah it snowed 8 inches today. i won't even reference the date or the fact i should be frolicking through fields of flowers, not stomping through snow. megan and i took some comparison photos.

Us at the beginning of winter:





Us at the end of winter (or what should be the end)






WE WANT SPRING!!!!!

i remember at some point last year reading in a bookstore about the symbolic meanings of animal sightings. for example, the continually presence of deer within a certain amount of time may indicate the need to be still and introspective. well,recently i have seen about two dozen deer, a dozen elk, 3 foxes, large amounts of chipmunks, 7 crows, a crane, and a wild turkey. for an animal sighting to have significance does the animal have to make eye contact with you or is it quantity of animals or does every animal count for something? This last theory would mean that:


I am to expect magic in my life and should do unto others as i would have them do unto me. I need to learn to trust my intuition and use the magic to create a new world for myself. I need to be gentle with myself and others and accept unconditional love. I need to endure on my chosen path until my goals have been reached. I must camouflage myself and use my instincts and creative energies. I need to observe with all my senses to anticipate and create the future i want. (this is a conglomerate of the symbolism of these animals, minus the turkey and chipmunks. those apparently don't mean anything)


okay.


today i was watching Montel at the gym and there was a psychic on and it was rather hilarious to watch, this woman briefly, with little patience, answering these peoples desperate questions. Her responses were vague with nothing really convincing, in my mind, to prove she is not making all of this up. my favorite was the lady who asked about her past lives, only to find out that she drowned on a sailboat and did not actually live on Atlantis like she supposed. bummer.

May Day

yep, its May 1st and its a blizzard outside my window. what is wrong with Colorado? it was eighty degrees yesterday and i was turning ground in my barefeet for a garden. its beautiful but i refuse to enjoy it because it should be spring!!

i fear i have gone a little bit crazy with spring and warm weather. i am thoroughly enjoying the warmth, eating my breakfast outside and reading books on the trampoline. i recently bought some wildflower seeds, a big ol' pack, and spent this morning turning soil and raking away the remnants of winter. it is supposed to snow on thursday so i haven't planted them yet plus i have more weeding to do. which is sad because what i really want is to sprinkle the seeds today and have a field of flowers tomorrow. in my concern for my flowers, i know i will need to water but don't want to break out the hose every day so i am stealing an idea from those more ecologically savvy than myself and i am going to water with grey water (all the left over water from dishes and baths etc) i think it will work out beautifully as long as i don't get too lazy.

hurray for spring!!!!

"you know we would be mocking you more if we weren't such dorks ourselves"

Eric on my battlestar galatica obsession.

all my worst nightmares are coming true. i was listening to NPR and a NC state scientist has found DINOSAUR PROTEIN (a T Rex no less) in the remains of shattered dinosaur bone. in some collagen or something. You all know what is going to happen next, some over eager scientist with dreams of glory will strive to take this scrap of dinosaur protein to create... a FREAKIN'DINOSAUR! didn't anyone watch Jurassic Park!? i am starting my underground compound now, because dinosaurs are going to chase us all and take over the world. i hate being chased.

today i got a flat tire...and was well on my way to changing it on my own (thank goodness the car had all the necessary equipment) when a nice gentleman pulled over and offered to help. ah chivalry. i was a little disappointed that i didn't get to complete it by myself but i was willing to relinquish the sense of pride and accomplishment to the man who took an hour off the job by doing it for me. sweet. so task for tomorrow, buy new tires.

i began training today to be an acupuncture assistant. i get to pull out the needles. the hardest part of this is making sure i get them all. that would be awkward, a patient walking out with a bunch of needles sticking out of their head. but i am stoked. today i just practiced walking and talking quietly, as to not disturb the aura. and whatnot.

but yeah. i am excited about that.


i have found that i have been inexplicably happy every now and then, which is astonishing! but where in the past five months i would slip on ice and break down into hysterical tears, i can now get a flat tire and still be chipper and actually laughing.

i can see clearly now...

there have been many recent events which have lead me to the conclusion that i really really really need new glasses, events not limited to my ex-job where children would steal my glasses from me and throw them and another, more sinister event, which i will not go into too much detail about but to say my glasses are now actually called "poo spectacles"

now, due to my tax return(yay volunteering!!), I am able to buy new glasses. did you know they are disgustingly expensive? but i have found a pair...and just as the lady was done measuring my face and telling me, that because my eyes are soooo bad they will have to special order lenses, the stem fell off my current pair of glasses...how long for the special order i asked? two weeks. swell. i just started laughing hysterically (remember i am wearing poo spectacles, now broken poo spectacles) and the manager came over. anyway, he fixed it all by giving me more expensive lenses for free and my new glasses (poo free) were done in an hour. hooray!!

i find that in this moment i only feel well if i move as little as possible, like do not move my head, speak, or blink. my eyeballs hurts. yep. today is my complaining day, tomorrow i am over it.

i had great pictures in store, but i cannot find my camera. i think it just hides from me. tomorrow i am running the health shop solo. lets hope all goes well. i have my minimum training and a large amount of b.s. to help me sail through sat and sun. excellent.

i have decided that my calling is to be an innkeeper.


but until then, i will be a receptionist.


i have had some crazy interviews, the wide range of businesses from childcare factories to a bill collector. thats right, i interviewed for a law firm that collects bills. the lady said she was afraid it may break me and i am too. so i think the alternative, warm fuzzy health spa may be a winner. i would get free massages and acupuncture.

today i chatted with an old lady while picking over on-sale green beans at the grocery store. we talked about the weather. it was nice.

tonight i am painting my toe nails, cleaning my room, and putting new knobs on my dresser.

yes. its tuesday. nothing is happening. i am putting new knobs on my dresser, i did my taxes, payed my bills, did laundry. i will probably also go on a walk, put in some more applications, and take a nap.

i wish there was more. but there is not.

tonight i have the delightful duty of watching Eli. So far he has slept the majority of our time together. cool. i'll just....wait for you to wake up Eli ;)

i am watching Titanic and reminiscing about when i first saw it, on a birthday, perhaps my fifteenth? its actually quite sad, though i remember giggling extensively when i first watched it. There are those who face death well and those who do not.

i actually have nothing to write about. just launching my feeble voice into the void.


helllllooooooooooo.

my cat is crazy


i have bought one of my tickets home-hooray!! i am really excited.

i need to make a pros and cons list for potential jobs:

Montessori after school director:

PROS:
career advancing
i would be in a supervisory position
benefits
get to wear nice clothes to work
great networking with hoity toity parents

CONS:
downtown
responsibility
potential to not be able to go home in may
40 kids
In downtown denver, long commute -possible resolved by the park and ride

Nanny:

PROS:
good money
relaxed, low key mom
guaranteed vacation in may
potential supplemental receptionist job at mr. nanny dude's office
two kids
shorter commute plus gas money
get to wear commfy clothes to work
great potential as a great job while i potentially take classes

CONS:
no benefits (but could be resolved by getting PT starbucks job)
not resume building (but potentially restorative to my frazzled over worked person)



um okay.

i had an interview and it went amazingly well. i have another interview and a follow up interview tomorrow. the major problem: only one hotttt interview outfit. hmmmm. i will have to improvise. suddenly my once incredibly empty schedule is very very full.

my activities of late (which i thoroughly enjoyed) that may confirm my (and sometimes my roommates) official spot in the world of dorkdom:

attending a university gymnastics meet- and then watching Stick It
Bible /starwars trivia game on st. patty's night, which we can't actually talk about yet because i got whooped and am still upset about it
getting excited about successfully using excel


i proudly wear my crown of geekdom with my staff of useless trivia knowledge that did not win me the Bible/ starwars trivia game. i am going to start reading the Bible again

also i dreamed of vampires again last night. it involved me becoming a vampire against my will, running away from ghouls whose entrails were leaking (quite graphically) and me, a traumatized and angry individual, trying to deal with my new reality.